two for one blog

So..get excited. I am posting two, yes TWO blogs in one entry! The first one I have been pondering on for a few days, and then the second one was something I was thinking about just this morning. I am finally back in my house (electricity is a-mazing) and I am VERY thankful!

this is from a journal I wrote on 10/9/06:

Lord, I want to indwell my thoughts so much in you that I have no time to have any other thoughts but thoughts of You and doing Your will. Oh Lord keep Your word in my mind. I want my mind and my heart to be so full of Your word that I am able to combat temptation and focus and believe on Your promises.

Isn’t that amazing? I don’t know if you journal, but I highly recommend it (I know, some of you guys out there think journaling is girly, but it is seriously great).  These journals are in a beat up old notebook that I had gotten years before I even started writing in it, but I love being able to go back and read what was going on in my life two years ago.  I found this entry earlier this week while I was reading.  It pertained so much to something that God has and is continuing to teach me-to watch the thoughts that I allow myself to dwell on.  This is such a daily struggle for me!  I find myself slipping back into old thought patterns, and I have to immediately stop them and replace them with God’s truth.  Re-programming your mind is not easy! Thankfully God is faithful. I am getting better about fighting through the feelings of anxiety or insecurity or anything I know is not from God, meditating on God’s word and believing his truth no matter how I feel. I am so thankful that God didn’t just create us and say..”here you go, have fun!” We have the Word to light our paths.

and secondly…

Most of you know that I love Kari Jobe. Well yesterday I was having a stressful day…and I listened to one of her songs for the first time, it is called ” My Beloved”. Here are some of the lyrics:

You’re My Beloved
You’re My Bride
To sing over you is My delight
Come away with Me My love

You’re Beautiful to Me
So beautiful to Me

Under My mercy
Come and wait
Till we are standing face to face
I see no stain on you
My child

You’re Beautiful to Me
So Beautiful to Me

I sing over you My song of peace
Cast all your care down at My feet
Come and find your rest in Me

I’ll breathe My life inside of you
I’ll bear you up on eagle’s wings
And hide you in the shadow of My strength
I’ll take you to My quiet waters
I’ll restore your soul
Come rest in Me and be made whole

This was exactly what my soul needed yesterday…and everyday. I forget what the love of God looks like in my life sometimes. I forget that I am not just another sheep in God’s shepherd pen, but that God knows me, so deeply and personally. He wants to love me with a love that is so far beyond anything I can imagine. He wants to hold me, comfort me, sing songs of love over me, and fill me until I am brimming over.

Lord…Daddy…thank you for your love for me.